Tuesday, December 1, 2009


Inside Back Cover

MAY, 2, 2003
Well, I’m still strange but it is 20 years later!
In NY and livin’ the life!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

The Final Entry, 2003

Weds Jan 1, 2003
Twenty years later old pal, eh?
Good time at home, stayed over Kate’s—dinner! At a crossroads. Finished children’s novel, it’s good I think.
Praying for prospects.
Who would have thought that twenty years ago, this memo pad, this stocking stuffer soon would contain twenty years of my life! Here’s to much much more, Love, Peter Halsey

Thursday, November 26, 2009


Home for Easter! With Kate and all yesterday (Sunday) Annie, Artie and Mai Tais last night! Novella turned down by Warner Books – moving on to the next thing!
Wish me well! I love you,
Peter Halsey
P.S. Working Cahner’s Special Events!!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Hello Dear Book!

Hello Dear Book!
Home for a short trip last Thurs and Fri w/Glynnis in Massachusetts. Then Sat to today (Wednesday) here in NH!
Running off now—
London for New Years!!!
Write again next year—
Love you dear!
Love me too! Wish me well!
Peter Halsey
P.S. Finished first draft of my novella.
Chris married – this year not home, he stayed in LA.

Sunday, November 22, 2009


Home last Thursday
In Maine last weekend for Columbus Day and now jumping into that shower again to head to Gloucester with Glynnis and then back to NYC Saturday.
Its been quite a month.
The Towers were lost a month ago and three weeks ago I quit my job. Its an odd time. Looking for temp work while I find a special events job or perhaps even a writing job. I see Winnie told me to keep up on my writing or rather I should. That was 5 years ago. Growth, focus and a computer have enabled me to do so.
Almost on the last page! Almost 19 years! Anyway, got published this year, write reviews for a website and am halfway through writing a novella. Looking for a literary agent and publisher now. We’ll see.
I’ll be back for Christmas. In the meantime, I love you always. Wish me well, darling little vessel of mine.
xoxo Peter Halsey
P.S. The Ramada Inn is now McIntosh dorms!! For school! Chris is getting married in several weeks and its just as well – we can’t rent a dorm room for the night!! Oh and camp again with Joni this past summer ’01. Fun!!

Thursday, November 19, 2009


Hi Baby,
Christmas Day! Had a wonderful time. Got home Thursday, spent Friday with Jonathan G. and Annie in Portland. Went to the Great Lost Bear.
My handwriting is HORRIBLE.
Had a couple of vodkas.
Chris and I started to fool around. He got sick, I passed out? fell asleep. Walked home at 6:15 am sunday morning.
Got together with Karen Suffolk and Elise.
Harry surprised us all by being home. So great. I have missed him. His daughter is divine and his wife only gets better and better.
Chris coming soon, off to Hallstead’s, for the annual party.
How the time flies. You realize I always have to write that now.
I love you, book. Always have. Back to NY tomorrow.

Love Always

Wish me well, as I do you.

Goodnight, sweet vessel.
God Bless, love,
Peter Halsey

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Millennium Approacheth

Last entry of the millennium!
Home since Weds. 12/22
Lotsa parents, Vickie, Chris—he turned me down this year! Oh well.
Heading to Kennebunk soon for the New Year. Joni, Annie, Jonathan and respective spouses.
Tried to see SJM to no avail, spoke tho’.
Had a nice moonlight chat and walk with Dad. Full moon night of the winter solstice. Huge! Walked hand in hand like I was five again!
Saw “The Talented Mr. Ripley” – very good.
So I did make it to camp this summer but not home to write.
Will write in the New Year, the new millennium!!
Bless you,
Love, Peter Halsey
I started this so long ago—Do you realize its our 17th anniversary?
I’m thrilled!!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Mom's 65th Birthday

In and out—quick trip.
Surprise Retirement and 65th Bday Party for mom!
Glynnis picked me up Friday
Dinner in Gloucester.
Drinks at seaside mansion.
Off to airport, my dearest.
Love, Peter

Thursday, November 12, 2009


Home weds. to today (monday) then off to Dan in D.C. this evening.
Vickie home – saw Annie, Mamoulian, Annie’s ex & Artie (current), Linzer, Hallstead 2 nights with the babies! Beautiful.
Chris and I discussed diddling but didn’t. I must be in love—I COULD NOT out and out have sex with Chris. But he wanted to—that counts for something, eh?
No-my baby, my Dan loves me. We have a date tonight when I arrive. I’ve got to be true to my code—
So make it one for my baby and one more for the road.
Speaking of which—gotta go. Love you madly.
Went to York Beach yesterday with mom + dad.
Litchfields in Wells for lunch. Lobster Eggs Benedict. Divine!!
Old places in York Beach gone. Barely any amusement park. Time marches on!
(And I’m old—31!!!)
Love You,

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

My Parents' 40th Anniversary

Hallo My Dear
Home for Thanksgiving. it’s noon now – leaving at 240 for a 5pm plane. Not rushing! But I’ll be brief—
My beloved father-just now-(between this and my last sentence) just handed me one hundred dollars for my Christmas plane fare. Wow.
So yesterday was the big 40th Anniversary party and it was superb-band and all-70 people. It went off without a hitch and was just great. Parents suprised-Annie, Beth, George Brown all came. We had a very good time.
Thanksgiving was just Mom Dad and me. Very nice.
Came home Wednesday nice trip. Went shopping at the malls with Mom Friday.
Well back to New York and work – I’ve barely been in! Texas, New Orleans with Dan (heart!) Oh yes. Dan – my love – my cute little Dan. I’ll send you an invite to the wedding.
I promise.
Bless you sweetheart.
I’ll write in a few weeks—
I love you,

Monday, November 9, 2009


Fri train + bus
Annie/Artie Asia
George Brown! in at 2am
Camp for
lovely swimming
martini lobster weekend.
Ogunquit Front Porch
last night.
Saw my old house!
Back to Dover
Off again!
Great weekend!
Love You,

Peter Halsey

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Fifteen Years Later...


Bonjour! Home for the camp festivities. Joni is with me—saw Jonathan Gordon and wife and children. Annie, husband Artie and no children (yet). It was a tonic to see them. Dick, Harry and family there too. I felt sort of excluded from them but since I don’t talk to them much anyhow…oh whatever.
After being kicked off the porch at 2 a.m. because we were too loud, Jonathan, Annie, Artie and I sat on the rocks, laughed talked and drank beneath the most starry sky…it was so lovely.
Had Moody’s on friday.
So good. Asia last night.
Sherry from three years ago came this weekend, sorta tongued me as she left and then apologized for not being in touch but she is otherwise married and this is her secret other life being here with Dan and all…oh my God! Well it was our own Peyton Place she said don’t tell your mom and of course the second she left EVERYBODY knew. How could I keep that a secret?!
Jumping in the shower.
I’ll be home soon. Untill then, I await our next meeting.
Peter Halsey
(Peter Sherwood)
HAPPY 15th Anniversary!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Chris Ballard!


My darling little vessel,
Home since 12/20—I leave tomorrow. I had a good week, not the least of reasons is because—prepare yourself sweetheart—I finally FINALLY slept with CHRIS BALLARD.
That would be Christmas Eve at the Ramada Hotel. Room 111. It was divine and filthy all at the same time. I couldn’t quite believe it was happening. He is a great lover, wild and he was deeply appreciative of my care, love, and understanding. I haven’t slept with anyone I have loved for a very long time. It was beautiful.
A huge blizzard – 19 inches on Tuesday. I haven’t seen a storm like that in a long time. Can you believe I’m writing and NOT leaving in 15 minutes or something ridiculous like that?
I turned thirty baby. Go know.
This year we lost Aunt Leafy, bless her soul. The funeral was exactly a year after Jill’s father. I saw Jill’s mother and Jill too. It was great to see them all.
The twins have kids—Jill is in another bad relationship. God grant me the serenity…
I’ve had a great time (obviously) and can’t believe it all happened with Chris. He totally planned on it, he told me. Wow. It feels nice to be desired.
I will write again soon.
How I do love our moments together, darling.
Until that time,
I love you,
Peter Halsey

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


Another Great weekend at camp.
Joni again with Alan Carpenter this time.
Sang, drank, ate so much.
Dad coming soon.
Things ok—work stressful. Hope to fire assistant soon.
Long for things to settle in office.
Nice break. Cleared (?) head.
Love you
Love me too
Write soon!!
Peter Halsey

Sunday, October 25, 2009



Gotta jump in the shower!
Friday and leaving soon.
Vickie home, Chris home from LA-went to spin last night where he confessed he'd previously been with a man. I was sitting down. He continued to say (after I'd asked) that he had fantasized about me about a year ago. Wow.
Last Friday I stayed with Buckwheat in Boston. Huge blast, speaking of huge, his friend Mario slept over. Jill lost her dad last Friday too. God bless them all.
I must run. I've had a blast, saw Winnie on Monday. Wants me to continue my writing. That, for now, must wait--
at least til I get home!
Saw a ton of movies.

See you soon.
Take care, I'll write later.

Peter Halsey

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Juleps at Camp


Greetings, dear little book.
Home, this time with Joni Bates. We’ve been to the camp for jazz, juleps and joyousness. I’ve had my apartment painted while away and cannot wait to see it.
We had such a great and funny (as always) time.
How was your weekend?
Well, Joni farted as she broke a lamp. A good time was had by all.
My cousin Jill showed up too with her latest boyfriend. I saw Beverly for the first time in years. What a wonderful thing.
This is the third fucking pen!! Okay…
So our flight is in a couple of hours and Dad is picking us up in one hour. I must get ready. Everything is still so much better. Boy things were so different then.
I went rowing this weekend to try and find an island that I now believe to be non-existant.
Only in my mind.
I’ll write upon my return.
Until then, my memo (fourth pen) must await.

I love you, Peter Halsey

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Christmas '95


Well hello!
Time just keeps on. Came home Friday and went to the doctor with mom! Swollen glands that wouldn’t go away and now have (thanks to amoxicillin). Harry came home in the evening with his lovely baby. It’s been 2 ½ years and the baby – Alexa – is now 1 ½. Dick, Mary, Paul, Lyssa. Jacquie North came up Saturday night and we went to Portsmouth Brewery and Spin with Vickie. Jacquie and I sat up until 430 am just talking. She’s so fabulous.
I am so much better than I was this summer. I will even say I am back to my former self. Healthy, wealthy, and somewhat wiser.
Shit, as they say, happens.
I am anxious for the New Year and close the book on this one. I spent close to nine months being miserable. I just want to be happy!!
I started therapy in August and it’s been quite beneficial. Christmas has been a blast – Martinis with Dad – Screams from the kids – lobster last night and of course, presents!

Soon, my darling, I’ll write again

Merry Christmas! I love you Peter Halsey

Thursday, October 15, 2009



It is Monday and am about to get on a plane back to the city. I had a nice weekend here and am anxious to get back. Thursday I stayed in Boston with Buckwheat – we went out and hit several bars.
Fri mom and I left for the camp, where my dad was. Saturday was the huge Dixieland festival. I met lots of nice people and drank a lot.
Sunday was great – on our neighbor’s huge boat in the bright sky, cool water and red wine.
I am no longer with Gregory. Things ended March 15 and I am having problems getting past my deep, hurt feelings. It was a difficult tough experience being with him and I am now releasing my repressed mental anguish. I think about him way too much. For always, I thought. It wasn’t meant to be and I must realize that and forge ahead.
I will write again in the upcoming holiday months.

Until then, my best

I love you Peter

Monday, October 12, 2009

Day After Christmas '94


The day after Christmas and scrambling toward a new year.
Leaving in 5 minutes for the bus – that long, long bus and back to my baby.
Had a great time, a short one and now must go.

As always,

Love, Peter

See ya next year!!

And Merry Christmas - !!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Ah, Youth!


Thanksgiving again.
Have I said how time flies?
Well, life as I see it.
In love. Beautiful man Gregory John Archer. Since January 28, 1994 we have been an item. Traveled to San Francisco this past summer. Was even in NH for an overnight June 11-ish for my mom’s surprise 60th B-DAY party. That was fun.
I’ve missed seeing anybody but Annie this trip. Vickie home for Christmas I think.
Something so erotically promising I feel in the air here.
Strange but I remember when sex was daring – not in the way it is now, Lord knows but having sexual longings for Jonathan Gordon and Chris Ballard so deep and leaving them fulfilled or not as the story went. Sex was new – I was unclear – just wanting to get naked with those boys…secrets, exploring wanting to touch them in new ways – it all drives me crazy!
So much deep, disastrous hope.
Just young and horny. Where are they? Married…straight. My man is fabulous. For always. I have a lovely nephew and new niece. Heaven, both of them.
Leave here Saturday. Quicker and quicker all the while!
I’ll write soon.

Love, me (Peter)

Wednesday, October 7, 2009



Was most curious. Didn’t do much. Saw Chris, Mike Linzer & Mamoulian and of course Annie.
Paté too – first time in a year.
Per usual, I always remember to write 2 minutes before I leave.

Must run!


Monday, October 5, 2009

Thanksgiving 93


Home again for Thanksgiving. Quick trip. Per usual, leaving in 20 minutes. Annie just found out she’s pregnant—going to Greenland next week for abortion.
So devastating. I don’t know yet (and neither does she) who will help her.
I saw Kate last night with her husband. We went to Work Day and nobody was there at all.
Great seeing the old girl. Haven’t seen Beth or Jill all vacation.
Perhaps over Christmas.
Talk to ya soon—
Gotta go.
Love, Me (Peter)

Friday, October 2, 2009

July 18 1993

July 18 1993

Hello! Leaving for NYC in 15 minutes or so.
Had a wonderful 9 days. Feel sort of recuperated and looking forward to returning. (July 9 – July 18)
Went skinny dipping last night with Annie and Chris while Dave and Vickie looked on.
I felt Chris’ butt!
How marvelous.
Anyway this is brief.
Not much to report.
Had a staggeringly uneventful trip. Which was exactly what I wanted!
Had a ball—Love You Peter Halsey

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Christmas Day


Christmas Day. I’m still alive and writing in this goddam vessel.
So I got turned around in the airport and never made it back to London. Oh well.
A fig for regret.
My brother Harry’s married. Dick’s got a kid.
I got laid. Big time.
I finally gave it up.
I call him
Angel Clare.
from Tess of the D’Urbervilles.
He’s dreamy.
Lives in Maine.
I cannot believe I started this thing 10 years ago. January 1st, 1983. Coming up soon.
I am alone, in my room and not rushing off anywhere
soon. It seems I always jot two words before I leave the country or something.
No, I leave again on Sunday. My entry for the year is complete.
I am living in New Yawk. The Big Apple with Gill Scott, whom I adore.
Still sticking out the life/acting thing.
Everybody was home this Christmas. Babies, wives + whatnot.
I am still smoking and this week have been drinking way too much.
I talked to Beth in Colorado tonight. She sounds very well. Its so far a way.
I think she’ll be coming to New York soon. To visit. Per usual. Very few hangers-on.
I’ve read a lot this year.
Most of the year has been spent moving.
Oh, I’m so tired and should go to bed soon.
I actually saw Mike Linzer, Chris, Mamoulian, and Rich Hallstead this week. It was great. Chris has been in Florida. His hair is so long and it is streaked with sun.
I still think of Padraic.
I’m sure I’ve mentioned him somewhere in this tome.
Somebody like Clare could make me forget him.
He’s soo…dreamy.
Well, I’m going to sign off for now. If I keep writing in this as infrequently, I should quite a few years of material left to fill the book.
For the record: June 16 to now in NYC. I think I’m staying. It’s a hell of a town.
Merry Christmas to you.
Untill next year,
I love you + love me too—
Peter Halsey

Monday, September 28, 2009


June 15, 1992

I am leaving for the airport in one half hour.
Destination? London.
I've spent 2 wonderful weeks in Dover, went to the camp with the folks and have seen a bunch of friends. Leaving D.C. was not terribly difficult. I just left and didn't look back.
And now I'm looking forward. The years will kindly show how memories come and go they ebb and flow
...like the tides
I had a wonderful time in D.C. and was sad to say goodbye.
I've been saying goodbye for four weeks. I can't cry.
Let's hear it for me, huh?
Wish me the best.
Oh and shiver me timbers

I'm sailing away...
I gotta go.
I love you
and love me too--
Peter Sherwood

P.S. At least no one can say I ain't got guts. P. Halsey

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

July 8, 1991

July 8, 1991

Hi, another year down. I've been home for 6 days and spent the fourth of July in my hometown. Enjoyed my stay and am leaving for Washington D.C. in about an hour.
I moved to D.C. October 7 1990 and finally got a job and all.
I miss my friends here. And wish they could always be with me. Oh well.
D.C. is okay. I wonder where I will be next year at this time??!
I am in a play now, and enjoying it, I just need to learn my lines.
I must go
We shall see what the future will bring.
I don’t have time to write all I might have wanted to.
What shall the next page of my future hold?
I love you
I love you
Peter Halsey

P.S. I told my Dad I was gay Christmas eve, 1990.

Friday, September 18, 2009

June 26, 27 '90

June 26, 27 ‘90

1:55 A.m.
It hardly seems possible that I started this thing 7 years ago, but here it is.
The nineties. I haven’t become famous yet, but I did have a pretty amazing time in New York and had a rough time too and had my heart broken and met some great people.
I spent the summer of ’89 in Portland with Beth Denver and George Thomas. The living quarters were fabulous, but I barely had a job. Ventrex for 3 days “disk-vialing”, lugging furniture for 2 days and working at Communiques for 3 weeks, got let go, moved home and eventually graduated from UNH May ’90, just a few short weeks ago. Wow. 2 years since last entry and they’ve been a pistol. Had a good last school year.
Just finally got a job at Café Brioche in Portsmouth hope it works out.
I’m so-so happy, meaning mediocre, not so! so! happy. But, I’m ever the optimist. Ha, ha.
So enough for updating my book. See you in what looks like another couple of years. What will they bring? My God, how time does fucking fly.


P.S. Missed the Madonna Concert June 16, 1990; she cancelled but did see the B-52’s sometime in Nov ’89.
P.P.S. I’m still smoking! And Kate is getting married June 30, 1990, this Saturday. The kids have all grown up—

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Summer of 1988

June 27, 1988

It is the summer of 1988.
Since I last wrote, Much has happened.
I spent four wonderful months in London, England.
I wanted to go and I went.
September 6, to December 19th 1987.
Regent’s College.
Life at UNH my freshman year was exciting, but I needed more and I got it.
It seems I fell in love.
Lived in Ogunquit summer of 87 with Jill.
Now as the fall of ’88 approacheth, I am moving to New York City to become famous. Remember I told you so.
Working at Shop n Save this summer and did not get cast in Prescott Park’s “little shop of horrors.”
Little Park of Politics.
I’m relatively happy, cannot wait to go to New York.
Oh – my future.
The cusp of the zodiac
the spring of my future.
I love you all—
“Start spreadin’ the news…”

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Off To College

August 21, 1986

Hi. I’m in a better mood than last time. I hope I’ve grown up. These entries are childish. Headed for UNH the 31st.
I am looking forward to it and hope I do well.
My nasty letter roommate situation is going to be cleared up soon. The Dean should be calling anytime. (It is now 11:25 in the morning) I sincerely hope my roommate is nice. His real letter sounded promising.
Vickie leaving 26th for American U. Jill is going to Macintosh for classes soon. I think things are beginning to start for her??? Elise in california.
My braces are off.
Year and a half since last entry.
Chris who?

Quit smoking April 85’ to April 86’
Back to it for a few months now.
Prescott Park:
Oliver 85’
Music Man 86’

I think I’m getting there.


Monday, September 7, 2009

Friday 22 March 1985

It seems years later.
It is Friday 22 March 1985, or say early sat. morning 12:45.
Things are so difreent then from a year ago.
I’m still smoking.
Really sorted out my friends at last. Fights, etc. A general rotten junior year. It’s quiet now. My middle bro’s out of the marines. Yahoo.
I want Chris as a friend again, but I’m not overly certain. I just want him I guess.

Saturday, September 5, 2009


Sunday Jan. 1, 1984
1984. That’s the first time I’ve written that (up there). Here it is. A whole year later than when I started. WOW. I saw another movie today. “Christine.” It was good.
Anyway, there was a surprise for Chris friday. I took him up to Funspot and then decided that “I was sick and had to go home…” and then SURPRISE! Chris was surprised. Bryan is such a pompous ass! I really cannot stand him. I found that out at the party. Chrissy and Toni were saying really mean things
about Vickie, Bryan too. I couldn’t believe it. They say there Vickie’s best friends! Bullshit! They’re just shallow and bitchy, I guess. I have to speak to Dan Shirley. I’m mad at him too. I A year ago, Christmas (’82) I poked Dan thinking it was Chrissy and he won’t let me live it down. Annoys the shit out of me. You can see I’m none too thrilled about much today. Mike Linzer went downtown with us (me and Chris) and he was kinda cheap to me. Oh well…Chris slept over last night. My mom got a bottle of Apple Wine for us. It was really good. Chris’ mom got
us a small bottle of champagne. I had that wine with 2 beers I had and I felt great. I had a good time. Jill came over at 12. Right after work, and unfortunately right after the New Year supposedly began. She took a caB home at about three. Me and Chris went to bed at 6:30. Oh God. How very late. Or how very early. Oh Jill has a good job at the Asia. Something she really needed. I’m still looking.
My New Year’s resolution is to stop smoking and I think I will! We have new neighbor’s in Winnie’s side.
Jehovah’s Witnesses. Nice people we rented it to them the day after Winnie moved out!
Christmas was okay. Untill Dick came over. He’s such an asshole. He ruined my day. Nice albums for Christmas.
I love
Siouxie and the Banshees.
So good! Ana (who I see I haven’t mentioned; just a friend a school) went to New York and I hope to god she gets me a Siouxie shirt like she said she would. Yea-isms!
Well I am doing a type of fortune telling. I Ching—Bea Perkins’ book. It said something might happen to Jill and we probably won’t be friends. I doubt it. It’s just my interpretation. See ya Pete


Thursday, September 3, 2009

Oct. 14, 1983

Oct. 14
Today is October 14! I can’t believe its been so long! Looking back, I still like my dog and things are okay. Carrie is fine and she’s opening up to me. It is so good because she tells me pretty much what she feels. I like that. Bryan found out when school started. He was kind of mad I didn’t tell him. He is talking to me and we’re kind of friends now. Tuesday me and Chrissy decided: I’d stop smoking for 3 days, she’d quit drinking. Well it was supposed to stop tonight, but we both gave up yesterday. It really didn’t prove anything except we couldn’t do it.
Dick got married a few weeks ago. The day was kind of fun. School is okay. Things aren’t going to well with Jill. They’re better now, but they were really terrible. She was kicked out of school and everything. THE B-52’s are coming to the field house in Durham October the 31st. I’m happy. I hope they do come. This week I was not to good. I snapped at Elise this morning and she cried. I felt really bad. I had snapped
at her and everyone else this week, i guess. I don’t know why, but things are better as I said.
There’s a football game tonight. I’m going.
Dan Shirley is having a party tomorrow Saturday. It should be fun.
I’ll probably write back and tell you how it was later.
Winnie’s leaving tomorrow, the 15th of Octobter.
She’s moving Downtown. I’ll be kind of glad I guess.
I saw the world According to Garp last night. It was super. Really good. I still feel the power of it today. It was really moving. I cried can you believe it?
Oh boy…
Well I guess thats just about it.
Okay see ya!

CiaoCiaoCiaoCiao Pete

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

TUES. AUG. 23, 1983

I was just reading the past entries I’ve written. Its really strange how I’ve changed towards people. I guess it’s a part of growing up. How sweet. How queer. Well you know what I mean. I’d forgotton how much my feelings used to change towards people. I probably sound terrible. I think I do.
A coupla things have happened. I got my Warhol Marlyn poster last tuesday. Bryan came home saturday. He has to be told about me and Carrie. I’ll have to do it. I’ll wait for him to call me. I talked to MA yesterday. I talked to her for about an hour. It was interesting. I saw Irma La Douce last night. 3 hours and I hated the ending pretty much. I really do like Duran Duran now. I said they were okay, before. And there I go again changing my mind. It bugs the shit out of me. I’ll try to stop it. I don’t think I mentioned were got a dog. It’s a cockapoo. White. Small. Cute. Pierre! I like it. But seeing what I’ve written, I’ll probably write soon and tell you I hate it. Pete.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Aug. 14, 1983

Aug. 14, 1983
Dear Diary—
Hi! I’ve been at camp for a week. Its been okay. But I’m glad I’m home. I got my Siouxsie shirt I’ve been waiting for. Its really neat. I also got Rio from the record club. Its okay. My old cousin Winnie’s home from being away all summer. She lives in the other side of our house. She’s such a bitch. She’s mad (probably) because we took the bushes down in front. New ones are going up soon. But she’s still mad. Oh well, what’s new? If you’re ever reading this Winnie – listen. We are your only people that care for you. Your other family only call you for gifts. The truth hurts, huh? Or maybe you know that. And you know, we really don’t care for you that much. I’ll probably be sorry I wrote this after you die. Oh well. You’re very hard to like Winnie. I guess I’m just writing this to vent out a few things. She’s not a nice person. Oh well I think that’s enough slander.
Things are good with me. I only had 5 cigs last week. Pretty good. I’ll write again.
See ya Pete
I guess I’ll continue writing. I am going out with Carrie now. Thats good. Bryan will be pissed. He’s at summer camp and has broken up with her. She’d broken up with him I mean. Asked her out July 27. Okay.
Chris did sleep over. Well not really. We never really slept. We stayed up untill 5:30 in the morning. And slept from then until 12:00. Fun! We went swimming at Guppy’s that Sunday. Haven’t stayed home since.
I read Valley of the Dolls. Awesome. I want to read Once Is Not Enough. Its also by Jacueline Susann. I also read The Hunger. That too was good. It was strange and didn’t seem it could end at the last couple pages. My mom is at a shower for Mary. She is about to marry my brother Dick. Got a dog last Saturday, Sunday, rather, the 6th. I’ll keep you posted with Winnie. See ya Pete

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Friday July 15, 1983

Friday July 15, 1983
Hi! Here’s a pen that works. I’m seeing Carrie now. I know from reading this you’d probably say, why? Well she’s changed alot. I’d like to get to know her better.
Anyway I went to Jill’s camp last weekend from Friday night to Tuesday night. My parents picked me up then. I had a really good time.
Me and Jill got along fine except for a few 2 minute squabbles every now and then. That’s okay—her sister Audrey is such a pain.
I saw Porky’s II last Friday. It was kinda stupid. I really didn’t like it too much.
But anyway, my parents are going to camp this weekend (our camp) and I’m staying home. Yippee! Chris my come over to watch Cat People tonite. But regardless, I’m sleeping over his house tomorrow.
It should be fun.
Talk to you later.
See ya Pete

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

July 6, 1983

Hi again!
It’s been a while! School is out now and I saw the Kinks and everything.
I got my B-52’s poster and last Go-Go’s newsletter yesterday. I have to rejoin now. I don’t think I’ll rejoin the B-52’s. I don’t know.
I found a tape of last May. Its unbelievable to listen to. All these songs remind me of Jill. She’s in N. Conway for the summer. I miss her. I’d like to see her and probably will or something.
Had a lot of nosebleeds lately (2) but! They were bad. I’ll have to have them corterized.
Anyway we went to our camp last weekend. Fun. Not really. I didn’t do anything.
I went to Elise’s and Carrie was there. (I knew). We had a waterfight (this was yesterday). Carrie cut her ankle, but she’ll be okay. I like her. I hope she breaks up w/ Bryan. OR VICE-VERSA. P

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Post Vacation, 1983


I’ve taken up smoking. Its kinda neat! I get a little high off it which kinda makes me sick too, but I can inhale. I never knew how to really. Jill taught me.
I like her a lot. I think I’m going to her cottage in N. Conway for a week in the summer. It should be fun.
About the last entry. A horrible time it was. Everything’s settled I guess. I don’t really care I guess. It was a way of stepping out of the picture. Not to good, though.
Anyway, me and Elise are still friends I guess. I don’t think I’ll get many rides home from school anymore from her mother. I don’t know. I think Tom should get a ride from his mother (I will too) and if not, we’ll walk. It really should be no big deal.
School sucks! It really does. My math teacher is such a bitch. Drives me up the wall. I can’t stand her. History is a pain, too. Big project due soon. Next monday in fact. Science is hard also. I don’t know what I’ll do. Just survive I guess. I wish school would just end.
Chrissy and me are getting along okay. I don’t think her boyfriend likes me being friends with her, but that’s okay.
I wonder if she’s kinda using me to get him jealous. That’s just what I feel, it’s stupid I know. (IT IS STUPID)
HA HA. Me and Jill say that alot.
I got the Joan Rivers album, last Thursday when I went to the mall with Chrissy. Boyfriend didn’t like that much. TOUGH SHIT.
Bananarama is great. I think they are my favorite group as of now. I’ll talk to ya later. I got to do math. REALLY SUCKS. I have a lot of homework to do.
See ya Pete

Saturday, August 22, 2009

May 31, 1983

May 31, 83
Hey! You know what I’d really like to do? Say what – I feel like making a cake!
That’s a B-52’s song. I like them again.
Everything’s going okay. School will be over soon. I’m glad. The Kinks concert is coming soon. June 9th. Yeah. I’ve had a cold. I got it when we went to our camp last weekend. I feel okay now. Psycho II is coming out this Friday. Yeah. Oh my scheduling worked out fine. I called Elise. She should be coming back soon. Calling back, I mean.
Anyway not much is really going on. Bryan called me today. He’s talking to me now. He wasn’t before because I told Chrissy something he said about her boyfriend. I don’t know what it is with him. Why he’s talking to me. Oh well. I hope I get to be better friends with P.J. He’s a good kid.
Ciao! Pete

Friday, August 21, 2009

April 13, 1983

April 13 ‘83
Today was fine. Tonite I didn’t like. Me and Lees have not got along well at was all. Yesterday I tried to make up, it was terrible and a misunderstanding. Today I went to Jacob’s Bagels with Vickie and she seemed nice. She called me later that evening and told me Joannie threatened to “beat her face.” Joannie and her husband Mark are staying with Elise and her mother. Vickie said “but don’t say anything that I called.” I called Elise to make up again tonight. She wasn’t home but I got the 3rd degree by Mark who asked if Vickie had called me. I lied and said no. Mary Ann, Elise’s mother, asked me the same thing, I said no. Elise called when she got home and I told Joannie I had talked to Vickie. Elise was kinda mad, but not really because I didn’t lie to her straight out. Mary Ann and Mark really don’t trust me I guess. I know I did wrong and stupid but I told Joannie to tell Mary Ann I never lied to her before and that I caught myself and decided not to now.
I don’t know what will happen.
I’ll talk to them at the car tomorrow. It was late tonite and I had to get off the phone though I really wanted to talk longer. I was mad I had to hang up.
I don’t want them to think bad of me. Because, I like Mary Ann, or Ma as we call her, a lot. And I’m upset at what I called her and SHIT.
It will all get out and everything will be bad and I can’t do a goddamned thing. Vickie had better not say A thing. Because she will have truly lost one who has always got along with her when she was shunned
I must talk to her.
I’ll write the out come later.

Monday, August 17, 2009

April Fools Day, 1983

April 1
Hi! Not much has happened lately. Except one thing. This girl Julia Redden, I am absolutely in love with. I call her “the gazelle.” She is going out with a junior, and has been for 2 ½ years. I was so upset when I found out. I will live, though. Maybe if I could just get to know her, it would be okay. Maybe Vickie will introduce me to her.
I had a math test today and a French test. Math was really easy. A possible 100. I hope so. I need it. French was easy, as always. I’m glad of that too.
Elise is a problem. She’s been pretty much a bag to me lately. I gave her a rose. “Oh thank you.” Vickie says, “Oh, give him a hug.” She doesn’t. Probably because she thinks her overpowering charm will blow me away. Also that I will think she likes me.
She’s really weird. I can’t figure her out.
But its okay, because I don’t have to.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

March 16, 1983

March 16
Today was another terrible day. In science, I was put in the corner (no big deal) and then as I was sitting down Mr. Burns says, “I don’t know what it is, but all the girls are in love with him.” Several “whys” from Toni and Chrissy says, “We think of him as one of the girls.” God damn you Chrissy YOU BITCH. Mr. Burns said, “that was really mean, Chrissy.” I’m sorry came from Chrissy but I wonder if she meant it.
Also Elise today I found out likes someone else. I was seriously thinking of asking her out. That sucked.
I’m pretty upset about today. That was the worst day I have had for about a year. New Year’s eve, the day after, was upsetting, but it was trivial.
I’m am so mad.
Don’t even ask about Jill. She’s driving me slightly crazy, but I think I’ll call her. Life can suck.
P.S. I’m seeing Billy Squier in concert

Monday, August 10, 2009

March 1, 1983

March 1
Today was really wierd. School was okay and everything, new pen! boy that pen sucked, but after school I went to the library for Sweeney Todd, for oral interp. at in English. It lead me of course, to Elise’s. Jill called while we were there and she said she wanted to go downtown. So we went and as we got out of Dover Drug (guess what they wanted to go there for), and crossed the street, in front of Sweet Dreams, this 55 year old man nabs Jill’s ear while she was tieing her shoe, and starts talking to her; asking age, etc. Me and Elise moved towards him and he started to talk to us. I told him Jill was going to U.N.H. since she was (21), and my name was George Munroe and her name was Marilyn. Very stupid but unusual to say the least. We had moved from New York so she could go to college and she had to go back to boston to get a lung operation. Lasted 20 mins (about.) I was talking to Elise when we got back to the house and I said if your going to the KINKS concert, supposedly I’m going with Donna she should have her money cause my mother can’t buy her ticket. She got upset and she said she was disappointed and I said okay, but its not my fault. This was later on the phone, she wouldn’t say waht was the matter before I left. She got that TONE on the phone, so I said by and hung up. I was very mad and I called her a FUCKEN BITCH! Off the phone, though. I never called her that before but I’m getting real sick of her, ya know?
Well, that’s probably not as good as I could have told it but I’ll remember what I mean. Nevertheless, it has been a wierd day. Gotta study!

Friday, August 7, 2009

Feb. 23, 1983

Feb. 23, 1983
I’m listening to Pat Benatar Crimes of Passion. I loved her so much until Precious Time came out. I’ve really lost interest in her. But her first two albums are really good.
Mike Linzer slept over last night. We watched a lot of T.V. nothing too exciting. I’m waiting for Jill to call because her mother is coming to pick me up soon. I haven’t been with her for so long. I think I miss her. Elise’s at her grandmother’s today and tomorrow.
Isn’t this pen really neat? I love it! Its one of those pens. See Feb. 22 for details. I love pens.
I really don’t know what else to say—oh well I saw Harold and Maude Again. Its a really good movie I think it might be one of my favorites. Sophie’s Choice comes before, of course.
I love Meryl Streep!
I guess that’s it.
Ciao Manhattan.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Feb. 22, 1983

Feb. 22 – 1983
I haven’t written for a bout a week hunh? Sunday, I saw Sophie’s Choice. It was so good! I think it was one of my favorite movies ever! It was really great.
Anyway – yesterday, monday I went down to Dan Shirley’s house. We were suppsed to have this big beer thing, but old McDonald’s sister who whas supposed to buy the beer, never did. It was pretty bad. I was getting really psyched about it. Oh well—Chris slepped over last night. We didn’t do much really, but play monopoly. I won.
After the Dan incident yesterday, Chris and me went to Elise’s. We went downtown and Elise robbed the city blind. I got this pen and another, but that’s it.
I think I might join the record club again but under my father’s name. There are alot of good albums I want. Oh yeah. I’m on vacation! For a week no more Mr. Burns!

Friday, July 31, 2009

Elise, 1983

Here’s Elise—
Hi. I don’t really have much to say cuz I always tell you everything anyway. Alright, I’ll say something nice. Well, I can’t think of anything. Just kidding. You’ve helped me to be hip. Someday when you say, Do you know the Creeps (or whatever) I’ll say Yes, I know them. I try to make you nice, and you are nicer, I think. At least to me. It’s nice that I can just sit here and not have to say anything. Or I can say anything to you. Even though you give me evil looks most of the time. One of these days I might get up the courage to blow my nose in front of you, but I doubt it. I don’t have anything else to say or else I’d say it. Now dont say anything mean about what I said.
Maybe someday I’ll grow up and be a famous movie star.
Wouldn’t that be funny.
Don’t know why I said that.
Love, love, love Elise

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Feb. 10, 1983

Feb. 10, 1983
Hello! Its been a while.
Well I’ll try to remember what’s happened. Okay, report cards came out yesterday, I went to the mall friday, the new mall is opening next sunday. Wow – I saw “Videodrome” last Sunday. It was pretty good. Deborah Harry was wonderful. Ohh I haven’t had school monday or teusday I really needed the rest. Dick continues to be an anus. He’s so goddamned good at it! Saturday I went to Mingles with Donna, her friend Anne and Becky. I really like Anne. She’s funny.
Harry called yesterday at 10:00 and kept me up till 20 minutes of 11—thanks alot! He said he has lost interest in Donna. But I don’t care—she’s still taking me to the KINKS. WORD FOR SATURDAY—BLACK RUSSIAN.
That’s about it.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Jan. 22, 1983

A Jan. 22, 1983
It’s been a while! Not much has really happened, but tonite I went to Funspot and Week’s with Donna (Grove) my brother Harry’s newest love. It was really fun. We were up at Funspot for 2 hours!
I only spent 2 dollars.
I really like her. We talked a lot at Week’s. Mostly jokes. I told her about Peabody and Bradlees and she said not to get into IT (stealing) again because its not good. She’s right, of course.
Well today I went to the mall and to Portsmouth with Mike and Chris. I’m glad Mike came.
Chris was kinda pain. But it’s alright. (I see rainbows) HA, HA, HA!
Midterms are next week. I really won’t worry, though. Nothing except Tuedsey will be too hard, but that will be a killer. I’ll study to morrow, and hopefully there won’t be school Monday and I’ll study then. Don’t know when I’ll write, but I won’t forget.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Wed. Jan 11, '83

Wed. Jan 11, ‘83
I can’t believe I haven’t written for so long. I really forgot. Not much has happened anyway but, I fill ya in.
Sunday I went to Theater By The Sea. I saw Deathtrap and it was really good. It was kinda scary, but not really that much.
Were seeing “2001” in school today. It is getting better. Monday – 1st part was boring. Tuesday was first i mean. Today 2nd part was good. Even though I fell asleep. But that was just because I was tired.
Yesterday I was up at Funspot again with Elise. Jill was there and she asked if we wanted to get burnt. I said why not. It was hash laced with opium. It was neat. No biggie. Bryan was upset that I did it, or the way I told him. He said I sounded like Vickie. But then he said he was only kidding. I don’t know, or care. Let’s see…I gess that’s really all. I don’t know. Oh Bryan, Elise and me are going to Audio Aucoustics this Saturday. I might get “Still Life.”

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Thursday Jan. 6, 1983

B Thursday Jan. 6
Nothing special today, really. I went to Funspot again and played video games for hooouuurrss. This really has to stop. I spend alot of money up there. I guess I shouldn’t but the most I do with it is buy and album. And now not even that with Audio Aucoustics! I hope they get Beauty and the Beat. Dick is not an anus to me now. he’s just there. Well I am ignoring him. He’s trying to talk to me or something but – to no avail!
Some udder time!
Hey Hey Hey
Anyway, I talked to Jill. I even called her. She won’t get mad if I keep calling her. I’ll have to remember that.
Oh well, I really don’t know or have much to say. I guess you’ll just have to wait ‘till the weekend.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Weds. Jan 5, 1983

A- Weds. Jan 5
Today was good. The dreadeds are going away. Not much homework. I’m glad.
I was really bad today. I took a tape in Audio Acoustics. The Talking Heads. I’m going to go with Bryan Saturday. He can take anything, but I’m not going too!
I was downtown with Elise and Carrie when I took it. I’m trying so hard to get along with Carrie and then Elise tells me she’s calling me bastard, etc. behind my back.
Elise also said that she does not mean it, she is just saying it to Elise so Elise might begin to not like me, and Carrie will have me all to herself. I guess that’s what she wants. She’s fucked.
But life goes on. I saw Kate today. She gave me a shirt that says, “Live long and be happy” in Japanesse. I told my parents it said RAPE YOUR GRANDMA. HA HA.
I got another newsletter from B52s. It was good. I’m waiting for my QPB books. You’ll also have to wait till later! BYE.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Tuesday Jan. 4, 1983

A- Tuesday Jan. 4
Today was alright. I had school. Only 2 people noticed my neck. Missy Michaels asked me several times and then let it drop. But Missy Markus wouldn’t stop asking me. What a pain! It really makes me wonder about her. The true bitch in her really came out.
Kate went to school but I didn’t see her. I called her and we only talked for a couple minutes.
I went to Funspot today with Elise. I’m glad I did because things were not going too well. It seemed that way to me. But by the end, it was back to normal and that’s good.
See ya!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Monday Jan. 3, 1983

B- Monday Jan. 3
Things were much better today. Parents weren’t home. They had to work. I was just home watching T.V. alone, so no one would bug me.
Talked to Jill today. I guess she had A wild time last night. I won’t go into that! School tomorrow. I really cannot say I am looking forward to it. I don’t know what I’ll say to the kids if they ask me about “the funny little marks on my neck…”
I hope I can keep this “diary” going for a while. At least to fill this book up. I have had these type of things before. I usually lose interest by February. February vacation! Oh I need another. I really dislike school. I hope I see my cousin Kate tomorrow. Enough to talk to. She had a really nice time in Japan. She got back yesterday night. I called and her mother answered. She said she would call back because she was out visiting. That’s Kate! And that’s all.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Sunday Jan. 2, 1983

C- Sunday Jan. 2 1983 Still can’t get the year right.
What another mess. today was. My hickey is common knowledge now and my brother Dick and his friend won’t stop teasing me about it. I’m not really embarrassed to the point of crying just suicide…HA HA! No actually I just feel DUMB. They believe its Vickie Tolman. I told them she came over drunk when me and Elise were babysitting and she forced herself upon me!
My father had his birthday party today and I tried to avoid alot of people. They must have seen IT. Coverstick does wonders, but not everything. People were looking at me…
This whole ordeal will not soon be forgotton. Not at all. But I can handle it. Really.
Jill came over for a minute with her mother just for the party. She was with a friend. She seemed so distant and far off. I thought things would finally be okay! They seemed so over the phone. Oh well. Till tomorrow!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

The First Entry, 1983

Welcome to Memo Book. Transcribed from a little spiral top notepad that I got as a stocking stuffer for Christmas in 1982 shortly after I had turned 15, the words, in fits and starts, ended up filling in parts of my life over the course of exactly 20 years. I've never let anybody look at this before.

Inside Front Cover
NOTE FROM MAY, 2, 1983:

D Saturday Jan. 1, 1983
Wow – today was a mess. I was so worried that my mother would find out about the HICKEYS. God, I wish Elise hadn’t done that. Things are okay now – its about 8:15 and I have a blancket around my shoulder so it hides what the stupid coverstick doesn’t. How EMBARRASSING.
I saw “Tootsie” with Bryan today. Was really funny. He seemed in a good mood..
Tonight is pretty boring though last night was fun. I’m glad it happened I had a real good time. I usually do with Elise. Chris is alright but I don’t know. Something about him constantly bugs me. I don’t know what it is. Its not really his fault.
I hope me and my cousin Jill get along better. I don’t like it the way it is now. But I don’t care – that’s really what upsets me. I don’t understand why I don’t care. Maybe later I will.
I don’t want to sleep now. It is only 8:30. I hope I’m able to get away with this hickey business. And I hope its gone by Tuesday when there’s school!! Bye for now.